“I wrote this down the other night. The opposite of love is not hate. It’s not. The opposite, the true opposite of love, is lovelessness. It is really easy to be loveless. There are a lot more loveless people than there are hateful. But, you can become hateful, because loveless leads to loneliness which leads to sadness which leads to anger, which leads to hate. But lovelessness, if you can identify it quick enough, just realize that you are just in a loveless time in a loveless place, that’s okay sometimes, that is good enough sometimes. And then I started thinking about mistakes and I started thinking about batting averages, because wouldn’t it be great to bat a thousand in life? Wouldn’t it be great to bat a thousand in life? My god! And then I heard this little voice and I wrote these lyrics down, and I will sing them for you tonight. ‘When you got hurt, it made you feel beautiful. Cracks around your heart, they make the light shine through. When you got hurt, big pieces of the floor, you put them back together, even better than before, you know what I’m saying, even better than before, keep me where the light is, even better than before, keep me where the light is, even better than before, keep me where the light is, keep me where the light is…’”—
I just finished reading this novel. IT WAS AMAZING. It’s been pretty long since I last read a book that really made me want to keep reading as much as this one did. I’m surprised I finished it so fast, since it usually takes me weeks to read a novel.
This book was really gorgeous. I loved the dream-like quality and how it blurs with reality, even though that confused me so so much while I was reading it. The characters are really memorable (I lovelovelove Oshima) and honestly that was a huge part of why I loved it.
However, there are still tons of things I don’t understand in the novel. I was gonna talk about it, but I don’t want to reveal any spoilers lol. And there were tons of things and random connections that were hinted at that I thought would be explained but weren’t. But I actually really like the fact that it didn’t become this neat explanation. The fact that the book has all these blurred boundaries really makes it a beautiful novel, to me.
(The random bold philosophical musings at the beginning however were really odd and seemed out of place to me, though. It wasn’t until the third or fourth chapter that I really got into it. And I do not get the second Boy Named Crow chapter AT ALL. what.)
But anyway, seriously, this was such a good/interesting book. Go read it. Now.